Sorry if this sounds so cryptic. So I've dug myself in a deep hole of obsession. I tried to rationalize why I've invested so much time talking to xxx. When they don't treat me the same way. They aren't mine but they are leading me on. Dad says they are a confidence trickster but I find it hard to believe its some elaborate ruse to con me. Their intentions seem genuine especially when I can see them on video once a week.. But I can't help but feel they don't reciprocate the same sentiment as me for what both of us want to accomplish. I tried reaching out to them for support but their circumstances prevent them from speaking with me when the entity is nearby. Seeing how I only have a small window to engage with them I feel like im depriving myself of other opportunities. Lol when I put this way it doesn't sound healthy at all. I know what I need to do I'm just hesitant about detaching myself from this state of affairs.
Listening to: The Who - Pictures of Lisa